I, I, I

I wrote this on 1/17/14 and I didn't post it until now.  I will do another update today too.

I have been feeling it's all about me lately.  I start every sentence with I.   I keep talking about me.  I tell stories about my life.  I think that I am boring my hubby and kids.  I don't know if it's because of all the cancer treatment I have been through this past year that I had to ask for so much for myself.  I have received lots of help and prayers.  I had a lot of posts on Facebook because I had time and I loved the feedback.  I watched a lot of TV talk shows so there were a lot of current events to talk about.  I read a bunch of magazines, newspapers and books, then would talk about something I felt was interesting.  I felt talkative after being home alone during the day. I am almost running out of minutes on our cell phone contract this month, because I must of called and talked quite a bit with a lot of people.

I know I had to focus on my health.  I know I had to have a positive attitude during this time. I felt I had to reassure the family that I would be OK.  I had a lot of pain. I didn't hide it, they knew about all my aches. I would feel better and they would know.  I was so proud of the day when I made supper again for the family!

I have gone back to work part-time, starting out slow the first week 4-6 hours a day.  I wasn't feeling so tired because I could sit for most of the time.  I was a little stressed out at the end of the day coming home, but I felt good!  I worked the second week longer shifts, because I was needed.  I even worked the Bridal Expo and stood for 5 hours. I am able to help out at the front of the store when it is busy.  I don't lift wedding dresses yet, but I can lift and hang up 3 prom dresses or mother dresses at a time.  I feel MUCH better stretching up my arms after this surgery versus the mastectomy.  I can feel it in my abdomen though, when I get tired from sitting or bending a lot. I can walk around and stretch and feel better.

I feel the fatigue is lifting - I haven't taken naps some days and I am sleeping better. I think some of the swelling has gone away.  I did find some regular bras to wear, now that the incisions are healed.  I didn't think I would be bigger than I was, but actually some of of the bigger cup bras are fitting better.  I don't want to buy new until I know what size is going to fit the best.  I have a follow up Doctor appointment next week-so hope to be feeling almost back to normal again!!  I am feeling better most of the time now-- Lovin and Livin Life!